It seems over the past few months God has been shaping and molding me for something. I’m not totally sure what, but somehow, I know it’s going to be huge! The thing is, I see it everywhere, not just in me. I see it in my friends which makes me smile. See I guess I don’t hold to the idea that revival has to come in a mighty way, at least not in the way we are used to. There was a time when revival meant a renewing of heart and soul that changed a region and a nation, however it played out. But I think in this age, revival is taking on a new face, something more subtle, yet just as powerful. Revival meetings and camp meetings are things of the past. Perhaps not completely, but these meetings has we have known them are quickly fading from view, especially in a media technology driven society. There was a time when it was necessary to go a distance to hear a good preacher. Now they are easily assessable from our computers. It’s not that I’m making a case for not having them, I just merely believe they are fading and their purpose needs to be rethought and planned accordingly.Wow…this paragraph is sor of off what I wanted to talk about….so change of subjects now. 
But back to me. Worry has been a huge things in my life. Worry that I won’t do it right. That my relationship with God is less than it should be. Than the money won’t come in. Whatever it may be, this worry leads to fear…or is it the other way around. No matter, what generally happens is that when fear takes over my day, it destroys it. This means that I’m not even functional the whole day. Sound depressing?….well yes and no. See, I’m realizing that my worry and fear are a direct result of not trusting God with my life…even down to my thoughts. (And believe me….my own thoughts analyze themselves…if that’s possible, which I’m sure you can imagine the worry that come from that…perhaps a little OCD )
It comes down to trust. My trust in God, other people…and in a sense….even myself. Do I trust God with my thoughts, fears and the unknown. The unknown has always been huge for me. Thinking of something never solves it. I generally worry about stuff I either can’t control or don’t understand, or both. Do I trust my friends? Do I trust those in close relationship? Do I trust myself to get past this wall I’ve put up. This wall that says I can’t be all that I should be. That resists giving my all to every situation.
This really isn’t meant to be discouraging. Rather I tell you this to say, that God has been working in my life, and I believe that he’s bringing me from a life of worry into a glorious life of trust, joy, and confidence in Christ. The journey still lies ahead, but it’s one I’m willing and eager to take.
-Brandon
One Comment
I agree God is doing something huge in your life and I am convinced through your life! But huge in God’s eyes is not always huge in the eyes of the world. Sometimes the revial grows one at time over a large spectrum that the world never sees it.
Trust is struggle for all, we see it throughout scripture, God is faithful, we build an alter, then we forget.
Question can we trust someone if their response is dependent upon our actions?
I don’t see God acting that way, yet it sometimes appears that way as he is training and disciplining us.
Ed